Feb. 2, 1998
Today Nanna and Miky went to the Cancer Clinic alone for the testing. Mom and Matthew were still too sick to go out. Her tests were up good and had her checked out, she is in good health. Oh, I hope she doesn't get what her Mom and brother has, because it will totally knock her down again. Miky and Nanna had a good time out together, it was a break for her also.
Feb. 4, 1998
Miky got very sick today. Had to take her to the Doctors and she has bronchitis and got medication for it. Tonight she was running a fever of 106.9. One very sick little girl. The doctor said her counts were good enough to fight it herself with the help of the medication. Praying hard here at Nanna's.
Feb. 5, 1998
Her fever has started to fall. She is fighting it off thank god. Sure wish these flu bugs would go away. Today Nanna escaped for a break (a much needed one). Flew to Las Vegas for the weekend. Papa has to take over with the driving if needed. *smile*
Feb. 9, 1998
Today we headed to the Clinic for the blood work (all packed for the hospital). After the tests were done, we had to head for home again. Her tests were too low to go into the hospital for chemo. Will have to try again on Thurs. Miky was pretty upset. She just wants to get it all over with. Only two more hospital stays. Sometimes I sit and watch this little girl and wonder what goes through her mind and what she is thinking. She is so little, I am sure she doesn't understand any of it. It must be terrifying for her. I know it is for me.
Feb. 12, 1998
Back to the Clinic today for blood work. Her counts came up enough to head for the hospital. She was hooked up and sent to the operating room almost before we got her unpacked. This time Mom is staying with her for the hospital stay, so Matthew and I headed back to Nanna's house to have sleep overs. hehehe .. This little boy is exhausted and needs a break, where he can just get up and play and relax .. too much running constantly for him.
Feb. 14, 1998
Today Miky went to a Valentines Party at the hospital and had a good time there. They do a lot of stuff for the kids in the hospital.
Feb. 15, 1998
Miky had a good hospital stay and got to come home on Sunday. She came to visit Nanna and Papa when they came to pick up Matthew and she checked out the computer and what Nanna has been doing for her here.
Feb. 17, 1998
Had to make a quick trip to the clinic today. Seems her broviac tube is infected and is coming out a bit. Looks very painful. Off to the hospital to get the right medication for the spot and the broviac supplies needed to look after the infection. This has been a rough time for her lately. She hasn't been feeling very good. She has never really picked up since she got sick after christmas. Seems to be one thing or another knocking her down.
Feb. 23, 1998
Today we had to go to the clinic for blood work and have the broviac checked. They did a set of x-rays to check the position of the broviac and it is fine and the infection looked better, so hopefully it will last another 5 weeks. Her blood count is very low so she has to stop all chemo till next weeks blood work. We are praying it comes up enough to get the hospital stay done. It will be the last hospital stay. From then on all the chemo will be done at the clinic. A big end of chemo party is being planned for the end of next week at the hospital. We have survived the last 6 months. Now we have 2 more years of clinic appointments and chemo. Time is going fast. Keep saying the prayers for all the little children in the world.
Feb. 24, 1998
She laughs and smiles,
she shows her love.
She's a little angel;
sent from heaven above.
In a world often so cruel,
she never seems to lose her cool.
Her treatments often leave her cranky and tired,
so I can see why she gets a little wired.
She's just a baby;
too little for this.
Her normal life;
is what she will miss.
She laughs and smiles,
she shows her love.
She's our little angel;
it's her we love.
"MOMMY WHY"
Mommy, why do I hurt?
I don't know baby.
Mommy, why can't I eat?
I don't know baby.
Mommy, why am I sick?
I wish I knew baby.
Mommy, why do they poke me with needles?
To make you better baby.
Mommy, why do they give me medicine?
To make you better baby.
Mommy, why does the medicine make me feel so sick?
So you can get better baby.
Mommy, why do people I love cry a lot?
Because they are sad baby.
Mommy, is it because I am sick?
Yes baby.
Mommy, is the medicine working?
They say so baby.
Mommy, will I ever feel better again?
I really hope so baby!
Written lovingly for Mikayla,
from her Mommy.
We love you so much Miky,
please get better.
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Feb. 26, 1998
Today at 9 a.m. Miky's Great-Grandmother passed away. The funeral will be on Sat. Feb. 28. We are hoping Miky is well enough to make the trip and that the trip doesn't wear her down any further than she already is. Another month has gone by and it has ended worse than the one before. Praying for a better one next month. Till then please Pray for All the Children.
